The
Resurrection of our Lord – Easter Day: April 5, 2015
Acts 10:34-43; Psalm
118:1-2; 14-24; 1 Corinthians 15:1-11; Mark 16:1-8
St
Stephen Lutheran Church, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
The
Rev. Maurice C. Frontz III STS
It
was one of those nights that you wake up about 1:30 a.m.
and
you want to go back to sleep immediately,
but
you’ve been through this before,
and
you know that you’re going to be up until at least 4:15.
You
know what kind of nights I am talking about.
You
get up and get some water to drink
and
maybe you eat something.
You
might turn on the television or surf the internet
to
get away from the flood of thoughts that close in in the dark:
the
adult equivalent of the childhood monster in the closet.
Regrets,
fears, dreams, hopes, desires, wants, needs.
Things
to do that you can’t do now because it’s the middle of the night.
Trying
to figure a way through conflicts you cannot resolve.
Rehearsing
conversations which one will never have,
in
which one delivers a really crushing remark
that
silences your tormentor;
or
perhaps you rehearse hearing the remark that crushes and silences you.
Worrying
about things you can’t do anything about –
the
powers of the world, the thoughts and actions of others.
Alone
with the voices until one finally falls asleep again,
only
to be awakened by the alarm which comes far too early,
to
face the dawn which breaks whether one has slept or not.